When I Strap On One Of These...I Now Know How Men Feel!

Heel-lo!

Can I just say, I had a very interesting weekend. I experienced some extreme highs and really low lows. But for whatever reason, waking up to another Monday morning, reminds me to be grateful for all that I have.

But back to the subject at hand. Yesterday I strapped on my Zigi NY hardcore dominatrix heels and boy did I feel like I had just popped a lil blue pill, after years of not being able to "perform"! Discovering, that I'm seriously pissed off at men! I realized this after having a very long conversation with a dear old friend, whom I've known since I was 19. She has seen virtually every man that has come through my life. We concluded, that after 20+ years of dating, THAT I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND WHAT I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR! In other words, I'VE NEVER BEEN LOVED...GOOD! If eyes are the window to the soul, then my choice of heels, is a looking glass into my love life...

"Don't cry for me Argentina", I've had my share of love-just not that good, healthy, long-lasting love. I've been married (which bore my son), engaged several times and loved my share of famous men. My anger is geared toward 2 men that have come back into my life unexpectedly; and got me to thinking about the dysfunction of our old relationships and the bullshit they had the nerve to call love! One has totally copied/stolen my business plan and the other refuses to ask anything about my biz-he just pretends that he doesn't hear me when I mention MsHeel.com and changes the subject! Uh, jealous much? That's why I have no problem calling them both A**HOLES! One will definitely read my blog and justify his bitch-ass actions and the other will never see this-as far as he's concerned, MsHeel what...Did you say something?

So when I zipped up and strutted out 5 inches taller, I felt powerful and in charge of my life! I am me and at 40, I finally know what I want! I want a real man; who's not jealous of my "stuff" and all that I've achieved in my life. I wore those heels feeling like I was on top, (which is always the power position). I walked into the room with my head held high, erect posture, strapped and ready for whatever life brought my way! I will never chain my heart to another loser. And yet, after all I've been through, I am not afraid to love.

This time I'll call the shots. I'll say who; I'll say when and I'll say how. But with the gentleness and kindheartedness of a woman, who wants to give just as much love as she receives. This isn't about being a Bitch. This about being in control, rather than getting walked all over.

I'm strapped, I've re-loaded (God, am I really quoting that Alaskan woman) and ready to love a good (tall) man (he has to be tall, I gotta wear my 5 inch heels)! :)